I am blessed to have Kristin as my subject and the footage and information she has shared with me has been touchingly intimate and emotive. Today she shared with me footage out-takes of the play with her father who was dying of terminal cancer at the time, photos of her mother as a child and film of Kristin and her mother when they were much younger, in the footage Kristin looks very much like Pansy and her mother looks very much like Kristin and her sisters do now. The way Kristin looks at her dad, is the way I see her look at Pansy often, with patience and love. I always knew this would be an emotional journey but I didn’t quite understand how much of my life this would effect and I feel very selfish expressing these feelings of empathy when my life has not been directly effected by suicide or maternal or paternal death.
Kristin gave me the link to her own blog which she had been documenting her pregnancy with. The first night with Pansy was very emotional for her and she wrote of her mother here.